Once...I had...

Once, I had beautiful sparkling eyes...
After seeing the ugly things of this world...
They turned dry & lifeless...

They were curious, deep, meaningful & innocent
Somehow... eyes have a way of conveying what we've been through in life...
Reminds us of the brutality they have seen & shown

Just like the lotus in the water, with good people, my eyes were blooming in the sunlight...
Taken out of the water... the same sunshine dried up...
My eyes became lifeless...

Who should I blame? the sunshine or leaving the water?

Lifeless as they are now, my eyes went out to look for the water...
To be blooming again...to be beautiful again...
Being stuck in a desert of ugly truths, they still look for the oasis...

With the self-imposed walls of loneliness... a skull with two holes is all I am left with now...
Can I see life again? Can I ever recover the beauty of my eyes again?
Was the damage a learning experience?...Was it worth?... I don't know...